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| At a dangerously quickening pace
I begin to lose my will to proceed.
How is it possible that after so much
I'm worried that we won't succeed?
What do I do when I feel like all hope
is spiraling down the drain,
and all I truly want to do
is see your face again?
What happened to all the times
we would talk and laugh and play;
when just the sound of your voice
could take my worries away?
But don't worry..
I'll be here, if only to be
your shelter from the rain.
I will always do the best I can
to bring smiles to your face again.
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| Well, it's certainly been a while since I've posted anything here, but I feel like now might be the time for me to talk again.
Life never goes the way you expect it to, and mine is no different.
There have been so many ups and downs, somtimes I get lost trying to
figure out where I am and where I'm going. But, it seems that, at least
for now, things are going the way I want them to go.
I was in a car accident in late 2007. I was driving down Drury Lane and
a giant black pickup trick came screaming out of the Trustee parking
lot and T-boned me. Spun my car 180 degrees and scared the shit out of
me. Totalled my car. So, his insurance company payed me the value of my
car, about three grand. I found a new car for about six grand. It's a
2000 Nissan Maxima, and I'm liking it more and more as I get used to
how it feels. This sucker has some umph to it.
It's 2008 and I'm about to start my final semester as an undergrad.
This, to me, is insane. Where did my life go? At what point did the rug
get pulled out from under me? Regardless, here it is, and I can either
freak out about it, or embrace it and just go. The latter is my choice.
I'm taking the lowest amount of classes that I can, because I've
technically already finished my major; I just wanted to come back to
take one other class.
When the semester starts, I'll restart my old job of being the
microbiology lab media preparation technician: Long name that basically
means I make the stuff that the micro lab students use each time they
have lab. This become particularly important, seeing as how I'm taking
Pathogenic Microbiology. So I'll be making my own materials. This is as
close as it gets to feeling what it is like to run my own lab, which I
may do in the future.
I'm still a Grand Loser and I live with my parents. This job doesn't
earn me near enough money to live alone in an apartment, and it seems
most of my friends have already found roommates and living situations.
So, this is fine. I'll be cool here until I earn enough to do something
else.
I feel closer to my friends now than I have in quite a while. For the
first time in quite a while, I'm starting to see that all the petty
crap and dumb stuff we used to argue about in high school is gone. We,
for the most part, are growing up! How cool!
Life threw me a curveball right around the end of 2007 by introducing
me to my girlfriend, Leah. She's wonderful. But she lives 8 hours away from me at college, which is the cause of
a lot of misery. I had NO idea how to handle feeling like this for someone and
never getting to see them to share with them my feelings. However, I'm
finally starting to realize how to do this, and I'm beginning to
believe that we can do it. Who knows what the future will hold for us,
but who cares? If we worry too much about the future, we will forget to
enjoy the here and now. So that's what I hope we can focus on.
I don't really have too much planned for these last two weeks of Winter
Break. This week I'm going to continue doing what I usually do: sit
around and listen to myself become more and more bored. Next week, I'm
getting my car tuned up and checked out, and if we determine that it's
highway-worthy, I'm going to make my first trip up to Chicago to see my
girl, Leah. If it's not highway-worthy.. That sucks. But regardless, on
Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday I have Singers rehersal, and then
Wednesday, it's back to the old grindstone.
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and New Year holiday. Talk to you soon!
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| Well, I am in London right now, on the computer in the Business Center in the Hilton Olympia. Tomorrow I have a sightseeing tour of London with my choir and then a farewell dinner. Then, bright an early the following morning, I fly home. This has been a very interesting tri, I must say. Ups and downs have abounded. But, I am pleased with the overall outcome, chorally. We had a few near misses as far as concerts are concerned, but I would say that 4 our of our 6 concerts were very well done. The concerts that were performed with native choirs were very fun and the social events where we had the chance to meet our foreign collegues were very enjoyable. But, despite the good, there were some bad times. Nerves ran high throughout the trip and a lot of bitchyness happened. I will be very glad to be rid of said crap. Anyway, just wanted to post before I went to bed. I hope you all have been doing well since I've been gone. I will post again sometime this summer after I've returned home and unwound a bit. Talk to you all soon!! Shannon | | |
| I'm leaving in a few hours for Scotland and England. I will be home on the 26th of May. I just wanted everyone to know that you will all be missed. And you should all leave me comments and such whilst I am away, so that upon my return, I shall feel loved. Thank you. Have a great first couple weeks o' summer!
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| I finally finished my freakin Dizzy Gillespie paper! You know, I actually learned a lot about ol Diz. He was quite the interesting character. Interesting enough for me to talk about for quite a while.. But an 8 page paper is stretching it a little.. So, I came to class today to turn the thing in, only to find out that apparently class was cancelled? When was I supposed to get that memo? I guess everyone else just turned their papers in via email, but I had no clue that this was an option. Pah!
Anyways, it's over and that's all that matters right. Next week I have to present Dizzy to the class for 8-10 minutes or something. So that shouldn't be too awful.. Then I have a paper for nutrition due the following Monday.. What's my topic? "Bacterial Fauna of the Digestive Tract" Heck yes! Why does this topic make me so happy? Man I'm weird.
Also, the same day as my paper is due (not next monday but the following one) is the Drury University Choral Music Department Spring Concert '07! If you can make it, please freakin do. We are doing some particularly challenging music, and a lot of the choir has been kicking and screaming along the way. But I think the performance should be entertaining nonetheless. So everyone should come! Monday, April 30th, 7:30 PM in Clara Thompson!
Now, for my benefit, I'm going to list out everything I have left to do before the semester is over..
Random Writing Assignment - Tuesday April 24
Dizzy Presentation -Thursday April 26
Nutrition Paper Presentation - Monday April 30, Wednesday May 2, Friday May 4
Listening Journal - Tuesday May 1
SMS Jazz Concert Review - Thursday May 3
Nutrition Paper Due - Tuesday May 8
Crawfish Research Paper - Sometime between now and May 11th...
Hooray.. Anyone who wants to is welcome to give me a hand with any of the above. And now, since I literally have nothing to do till Singers at noon, I think I'ma go get me some food! Hope everyone's semester isn't becoming TOO awful..
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